The letter unposted.

Hi,
Its been a long time since i spoke to you.
And Iam sorry for breaking the promise that i made not to disturb you again till i die.
But I need to make some things clear.
Something makes me feel that some strings are still attached between us.
And the breakup seems a lie that we are trying to live with. It is ok if you don’t feel as i do but something makes me believe that you are still in love with me as i do. But since we learned to live without eachother now it doesn’t matter even if the love is still somewhere in our hearts.


And I am sorry for lying that i have learned to live without you but it is true that i have learned to pretend that i can live without you.
And all these years i pretended like this very well and now i feel shame on myself that iam neither true to you nor to my own feelings. I feel hurt even to this minute. And now i can pretend no more.
And now i have to admit the truth.
And today is a special day for me because it is your birthday.
And i still remember that on this day exactly a year back, how i kneeled down before you and asked you, “will you be the mother of my children?”, and then you said nothing and just smiled with moistened eyes nodding your head. It was your birthday and it was you who gave me your love as a gift. And that gift is still in my heart safely.


But now as i see today everything has been changed. We are not together. And this feels like i am on a different planet in a different solar system many light years away.
I still cannot figure out what made us fall apart when we are so madly in love with each other.
It feels crazy is it not those silly little misunderstands that built this great distance between us?
When we can understand that we love each other then how come did we not understand those silly matters? I don’t want to bring back ungrateful moments. It was my mistake. I should not have to behave like that. I feel guilty for that.


And now I know past is past we cannot fix it. We have to accept it. But I cannot live with it anymore.
So, with this letter i make it clear to you and myself that i want you back into my life and i really don’t want anyone  else. Because I still love you and I am forever yours as promised, on the day i kneeled down to propose you.
And I am sorry for everything.
Thanking you,
Forever yours xxx.
But he did not give her letter because, this was written on the back side of that letter.

[I came to give you this letter many years back but I saw you are happy with someone else.
I realised it is too late. I realised I don’t deserve you anymore.
But love is love you are happy then I am happy.
And thanks for those memories.
I will carry them till my last breath.
I miss you.]
And this letter was sent to her after he died after a year later.
The reason the doctors said is heart attack but only his soul knows that he died because of heart break.